Fix Me

why is it that we are always trying to fix ourselves? make changes, have a do-over?
why is it so rare to find someone who really and truly accepts themselves just as they are?
not that i think there is anything wrong with self-improvement. i'm the queen of it.
i've read every self-help book i can get my hands on and i'm constantly wanting to change something about myself.
why?
what's so wrong with me just the way i am right this very moment?
what really and truly needs to be changed?
are the issues i have actually real and valid? or do i just make them out to be something so i can have something to 'work' on? something to 'fix'?
it's such a fine line to find that balance of loving ourselves right now but also taking the time to take care of ourselves and do things that might bring about some positive change.
if and wherever it may be needed.
do we also get so used to being a certain way? do we get used to those negative emotions and habits so they are naturally so much easier to fall into? even if it's not the way we want to be and we know what is best and healthier for us.
maybe i think too hard. i KNOW i worry too much. for some reason i always think that i HAVE to be stressed about something even though that's just silly.
ah...maybe i just need to lighten up.